This is the feeling I am enjoying as well as I am feeling bad, don’t
know how to express what am I feeling but not sure that I am happy or
sad...
Feeling this world is full of selfish people who just use God as there tool to get happiness and now I feel I don’t do that so I don’t get happiness that I am looking for... God has just become a tool for every and any one & if I dont go to temple it clearly means that I wont be blessed by God, honestly God I feel I am missing the blessing from u. I want that love n care but from no where I can get it.
God, I dont know what human wants, what he has .. in all situation he is not happy as want is always more then what we have .. we dont get what we want, every thing is ur game .. u are one who decides every thing, what I should get n what not. But when I dont get some thing that I want, u very well know the pain that I face. Dont you know that ? that pain is so bad & I will act cranky on that for sure n will face lot more prob because of it. Now when I behave cranky with person I want now I observe a unsaid silence between me n that want. I am so aware that why this happens to me, I don't like the feeling of IGNORANCE .. it just kills me ..
I know its karma & if u have rejected love, karma will apply it back to u & make sure that u also dont get the love. Same thing is happening to me. I have destructed multiple relations in my life so its hard or next to impossible to get love :( .. I dont know till when will this continue .. how do I applogise that things settle in my life ..
Today feeling that I really don’t have a single friend with whom I can share any of my feeling, I feel that I am so alone and I really feel that no one is with me. I feel that I am so alone but I am with only myself. I am feeling so alone what to do, this time I have gone crazy n shouted n spoken to my self, I dont know I did not have any other alternative .. I was alone .. I try to think of whom to call and I really don’t have any one with whom I can talk my heart out. I am like what to do and what not to do.
I am tired of myself, I really lost everything and now I am left with nothing but just this loneliness and myself.
Feeling this world is full of selfish people who just use God as there tool to get happiness and now I feel I don’t do that so I don’t get happiness that I am looking for... God has just become a tool for every and any one & if I dont go to temple it clearly means that I wont be blessed by God, honestly God I feel I am missing the blessing from u. I want that love n care but from no where I can get it.
God, I dont know what human wants, what he has .. in all situation he is not happy as want is always more then what we have .. we dont get what we want, every thing is ur game .. u are one who decides every thing, what I should get n what not. But when I dont get some thing that I want, u very well know the pain that I face. Dont you know that ? that pain is so bad & I will act cranky on that for sure n will face lot more prob because of it. Now when I behave cranky with person I want now I observe a unsaid silence between me n that want. I am so aware that why this happens to me, I don't like the feeling of IGNORANCE .. it just kills me ..
I know its karma & if u have rejected love, karma will apply it back to u & make sure that u also dont get the love. Same thing is happening to me. I have destructed multiple relations in my life so its hard or next to impossible to get love :( .. I dont know till when will this continue .. how do I applogise that things settle in my life ..
Today feeling that I really don’t have a single friend with whom I can share any of my feeling, I feel that I am so alone and I really feel that no one is with me. I feel that I am so alone but I am with only myself. I am feeling so alone what to do, this time I have gone crazy n shouted n spoken to my self, I dont know I did not have any other alternative .. I was alone .. I try to think of whom to call and I really don’t have any one with whom I can talk my heart out. I am like what to do and what not to do.
I am tired of myself, I really lost everything and now I am left with nothing but just this loneliness and myself.
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