From eyes of a person whose kidney might not work properly, even have seen lot of documentary on this ..
Its time now, 16 august 2007 till date, I feel my biggest enemy is water and water and water. I dont know but I fear to drink it as I am not sure if I will be able to filter it out properly. I dont even know if my kidney work or dont work. I keep taking risk which i relay should not take but don't know why I cant stop my self and I keep doing such things that will be hurting my kidney / liver much more then I could even think off.
Its nearly 5 years of the nightmare that I faced but still it haunts me. I have tried telling this to two very special gals in my life but no is there with me to share it again or just even talk to me. Its easy to say forget it and move on but its not love that I can move on, its my own body that is with me 24*7 and I just cant move on with it ..
I love the feeling of the pain that I get but I am now tired of it .. cant express it ever in words but at times I feel is only the soul is material in the nature then why such a pain to body !! whats the prob .. can I ever get rid of this .. cant even go to family and tell them this .. its better I be alone and face these nightmare alone .. loneliness welcomes me !!
Its time now, 16 august 2007 till date, I feel my biggest enemy is water and water and water. I dont know but I fear to drink it as I am not sure if I will be able to filter it out properly. I dont even know if my kidney work or dont work. I keep taking risk which i relay should not take but don't know why I cant stop my self and I keep doing such things that will be hurting my kidney / liver much more then I could even think off.
Its nearly 5 years of the nightmare that I faced but still it haunts me. I have tried telling this to two very special gals in my life but no is there with me to share it again or just even talk to me. Its easy to say forget it and move on but its not love that I can move on, its my own body that is with me 24*7 and I just cant move on with it ..
I love the feeling of the pain that I get but I am now tired of it .. cant express it ever in words but at times I feel is only the soul is material in the nature then why such a pain to body !! whats the prob .. can I ever get rid of this .. cant even go to family and tell them this .. its better I be alone and face these nightmare alone .. loneliness welcomes me !!
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