heartbreak of loving someone u were never with

It’s everything you’ve ever wanted standing right in front of you but they aren’t yours to have. It’s every dream you thought of, imagining a life together but the closest you’ll ever get to it is when they meet you in your dreams. It’s waking up alone and looking over at a bed you wish they were in. It’s your heart breaking but you can’t even say anything because how do you explain or justify heartbreak when it’s someone you aren’t even with?

So you painfully walk away looking over your shoulder one or more times. You begin to question love all but entirely. You question yourself and your judgment. You wonder why can’t it be so simple? And you’re left with no other choice but to move on. But you really dont want to move on. 

Time moves on and the ache in your heart begins to fade away. But the honest truth about loving someone you can’t be with is no matter how long you spend apart and grow on your own, those feelings don’t just go away. These feeling wont let you sleep nor let u stay awake. This feeling will just not let you live, nothing will work for you, no logics will matter in life, only thing that will be able to help u is love form her which is just not going to happen. 

The honest truth is sometimes regardless of how good you might be for each other it just won’t happen, it just does not matter who is she with, you thought she is Miss Perfect for you but it might happen that she is searching her Mr. Perfect.  The right love is something we’d define as perfection but the right love at the wrong time are a lot of people’s reality. Why did it became yours, there is no answer to this.

There’s no way really to move because no matter what step you take it will never be one together. But there will come a time where you cross paths and every emotion will hit you like a wave and you’ll find yourself drowning in those same feelings you thought you left behind long ago. It will just kill you. Each day you try to run away from the situation from meeting them as you know you will break when u talk or meet with them as u are not looking at them as they are looking at you. 

But the pain is real. The love is deep. And it cuts you to a point where you’re on your knees crying alone because the only thing that hurts more than heartbreak is finding the right person when you or they aren’t ready for it. They dont even have a idea of what you are going through. Pain turns to panic attacks to not have any power to live but still you dont want to do anything wrong & hurt her more.

It’s hard to come to terms with love being both beautiful and heartbreaking. But that’s the reality of loving someone you can’t be with.

You walk around with all these feelings you don’t even know what to do with because the only person you feel something for is the same one who cannot receive these intense emotions that keep you up at night. There is no end to the pain, you just feel like going to her and telling her every thing but you know if you speak a word also you will loose her completely. 

Sometimes love just isn’t enough to make something work & worst feeling is when you know one of the main reason of her not being close to you is some one the mistakes that you made. 

You’ll look this person in the eyes and know whatever that ‘it’ is, it’s still there. And it burns you from the inside out with just a simple look. And one simple encounter will prove to you some things never change

I think there are such things as soulmates not ending up together & that is what you are for me. And as much as I don’t want to believe that, I think you can go your entire life holding a little piece of your heart for someone else. Is that not worth it ? I totally feel its worth to wait for her. 

World hits you so bad that nothing can help !! so .....