It was few months ago when I had met her for the first time.
This was the person who I genuinely thought would be the true love of my life,
soulmate types. This was the person I thought I would end up spending the rest
of my life with.
I
met a girl who had somehow found a way to break through my emotional walls and
tap into my soul in a way that I had never felt before. She was able to
establish a kind of connection with me that I hadn’t felt with anyone else in
my life. She was someone who somehow found a way to make me open myself up to her
on a level that I wasn’t comfortable with – and yet anyone else, it all felt so
right.
I emotionally undressed before
her. I was as naked as one could get in front of this girl. She just managed to
awaken something in my life that I never even knew existed. And when she did
trigger that little something inside of me, it was as if a light bulb just
turned on. It felt like a flame just ignited inside of me and the passion was
burning me from the inside. I felt like I had somehow been set free from a cage
that I never knew I was in, to begin with.
At that time, I thought I
was living out the big love story that I had always wanted for myself. But it
turns out that I was living a lie that just looked like something that I
terribly wanted. It turns out that I was merely living in a delusion.
I fell for a man who just didn’t love me the way that I loved her.
I loved her to a point that she just couldn’t go herself. And it was one of the
most painful realizations that I have ever had come to. It hurt me very deeply
to know that she could never grow to love me in the same way that I had loved her.
However,
even though things didn’t necessarily go to plan; even though I never got what
I wanted; even though life chose to go a completely different direction from
what I expected, I sincerely can’t deny the ssheer significance of that point
in my life. Will never again feel such feelings for anyone ever again.
