feeling of being unworthy

This story is about a person who use to choose everyone else before himself. No one every realized this as no one has time to see how this person was contributing to their life and hence nobody ever paid any attention to him. Most of the time he use to be happy to help others but he always failed to understand why no one ever understood his misery. Why no one cared how he is feeling though he rarely showed him. For him a simple fever to any of his friend was major thing but for his friend him being operated was also may be nothing. He never went to any one and ask WHY ..

One day, he heard in his own dream, that he (you) deserve much more love than what you can give to others around. You also deserve to be listened and be heard, you unseen tears are also equally important. Your own existence makes a very big significance to the earth. You deserve to feel cared for, simply because you are alive and your heart needs nourishment. You deserve to open your heart to someone because you carry something that no one else does. You deserve to be comforted because your heart needs to heal before you pour out the rare love it bears. You deserve so much more than what you think is good enough for you.

Over the years I have realized that one does not need to pass through the pains to understand the truth of life. If you feel this relationship is toxic today, give a try but if you still feel its toxic, then u have all rights to come out of it. You don’t need to settle for a compromised relation. All u need to do is to know you own worth and your value. To be very honest no one else apart of you can show you ur own worth. You are beautiful and strong, full of kindness and integrity. You are worthy of a love that is permanent. A love that never gives up. A love that values you for who you are.

So, start choosing your friends correctly, the one who truly recognize your beauty. The one who are ok to stay with you the way you are and not the way they want to see you. The ones who aren’t scared of minor challenges and ur mood swings. The ones who remind you of your worth and not of your uselessness. The ones who love to listen to your stories and not just tell their. The ones who wish to be with you. The ones who truly cherish your dreams and desires & help you to grow and get them. The ones who make you laugh shamelessly. The ones who wish more time with you. The ones who are patient with you. The ones you can simply trust and rely on. The ones who truly appreciate your existence. The ones who break and heal with you. The ones who want to experience life with you. And most importantly, the ones who love you. 

Don’t let others miss-treat you

When they are not putting efforts dont force them to love you. This applies to any form of relation that you have in your life, may be a lover, your kids, your friends or any one .. 

How many times in life it has happed that you have texted someone and you keeping looking at the page to see a return message, you can see that person online for hours but still not reply to you. You can them meet but every time a new reason is give and you know that there are no such reasons. How many time have you rearranged your schedule to match it to her ? 

Never chase someone who only seems interested when she’s wasted. Never chase someone who only wants you for one thing. Never chase someone. Period. Because you should be with someone who wants you just as badly. Someone who realizes how fortunate she is to have found you. Someone who would never run away or avoid being caught. 

Do not send the third text when failed to get the answer for first two, do not wrap up your self in a jeans min you get a call from her that she wants to meet you. We end up sharing all such crazy small small things with our friends and family & at that time non of her friend even know who you are. She knows everything about you but you just know her till the extent of her name. STOP RITE HERE.

No one who cares for you is so busy that they will treat you as a second choice, in case you are being treated as a second choice, just hold on, recheck the entire situation, evaluate it again and take a step back. There is nothing wrong taking a step back today and not hurting your self tomo.

Such feelings are like sting from a scorpion, each time they will talk to you, you will get a attack of love and you will even move closer to them but at the end of the day sting is a sting and its poison. So never give attention to someone who pics and chooses when to give you attention and when to hold. 

Don’t be a puppet in her hand. Its no fun to you but only fun to her.

Never be with that kind of person who is too comfortable with you in private but not even looks at you in public. Don’t be a story of last minute cancellation for all her plans with you.

You should not settle for someone who thinks so little of you. You should not put yourself through that kind of pain, because you deserve to be someone’s first priority and their first thought every morning

Final note 

"I am done waiting to call you mine. I am not going to chase you any further. You already know how I feel about you. I have already shown you how serious I am about us. I don’t have anything else to tell you. I don’t have anything else to give you. I am finally done"